Don't look at it as difficult; look at it as a lesson

 When people hear about my life, year after year they say, “Wow, how have you managed”, some parts of my life are almost unbelievable, but believe me it is real.  I look back and recognize that there have always been others around to bare witness, and now I see why, some need it to believe what they have not seen.   I have lived a life in a constant state of humble. (If this is improper English, you will learn to speak CarleneJ)But what I focus on are only the things I want. When things happen, I do not focus on the act itself but rather I absorb every moment of it with HIM for strength and I really take it all in, because I need to understand it all for one day it will be used to help others. I mean, I am sure it is written somewhere in the bible that anything bad will be used for good.  I no longer label it as "Bad" in my life, like I use to, because I know with Faith that it's all used for good and I am just a vessel of that message through Him. It's almost as if I feel honored that he has chosen me, that He knows I have faith in Him and that through me he can deliver His message and others can bare witness. So in moments were I do get over whelmed, Pillars of support are provided and at times when I do not understand the message that’s being delivered, I seek wisdom and I am provided.  I do not try to understand the act itself, I have learned it’s more important to understand the lesson that is being taught, and to continue to stay the course and focus on what I want and not on what I don’t.  Remember A Shadow cannot Shine and what I want, is all that's promised! ~ Carlene Altom 4-16-12